Lacking in a few departments

My fantasy world is not meeting my expectations in reality. 

First disappointment; Men.. In General and specific cases,

My new dude sucks at calling. Granted he is busy but I’d rather not be the one who calls all the time.  I don’t know if he has time for my hopes of him falling in love with me… I don’t see that happening if we hang out so sparsely. No complaints on When we hang out. We click, there is a spark and I like him a lot! But it’s just he’s a Gemini and doesn’t do well at keeping in touch.

Second disappointment, and we all saw this coming was my crush at work, YOSH, quote, “has a girlfriend and is in love”. Found this out from a reliable source.. Well whatever! There goes my daydreaming of dating a hot firefighter (one as hot as he is anyway!) But since Love doesn’t last— yeah I’m saying that— all is not lost. Maybe when I leave here in ____ time ?? I will still slip my business card in an inter-departmental mail envelope and ask him out. Or not! Bc he is 22 and will probably break my heart anyway.

I can’t help but be depressed. I’ll be gorging myself on Valentine’s day with treats bc I think I deserve to be spoiled and I just have to do it myself this year.

bills flying out of my butthole

Student loans have just become a new part of my life.  First letter I see and there is allready a late fee (Typical). Dealing with this shit is time-consuming. I’ve wasted a good amount of minutes on the phone with SallieMae, even though my account is Online! Sure you can do it online hassle free, but there are things there that you would never know to do unless you called and had somebody tell you.  You’d think if you signed up for AUTO-DEBIT, where they deduct from your checking account automatically on a monthly basis that you wouldnt have to make a manual payment for the first time.  Well, you do! So I done did it just a minute ago.  This is just the start of the next 10 years of life where this will be deducted from me! If I had known this was going to come up on me like this, would I have even gone to college???? hmmmmmmmmm….

I’m just putting $ into perspective here. My monthly payment is a round trip fare from Oakland to Boston.  I could go there every month, but no I think I’ll continue paying off my loans instead  

 Aside from loans, I also have Rent and bills to pay. Groceries to buy and so on….

 In my other worlds,

love life is weiiirdddd… I met a dude who is supah cool who I like ALOT! This hasn’t happened in a while and we’ve gone out two times. He is a supaaaaaaaah cutie!!!

secondly an anonymous firefighter was asking about me and says I’m cute.. who could it be..

Thirdly, the guy I sweat big time is across the street at this very moment and he smiled at me today I haven’t seem him in months but he is still supah HOT!

PMS

Hello.

This is what I don’t like to do at work:

-Accounting, bills

-Managing bosses credit card

-dealing with IT

-reading fine print so it gives me a headache

I also don’t like being scolded by my landlady bc she hasn’t received my roommates’ rent checks which were dropped in the mail a week and a half ago! Wtf is going on?!!?

madness

People need to stop:

Asking me if I have a car yet,

 Asking me if I’m “permanent,”

liking me if I do not like them (romantically),

bugging me,

asking me to do 10 million things,

jerking me around on the phone

Ghiradelli Caramels are the Shit!

It’s FRIDAY. and I’m at work doing everything to distract myself. I’ve eaten at least 4 or 5 Ghiradelli chocolate squares and I am obsessed with the caramel ones. omgosssshhh!!

I am trying to get stuff done but it is hard bc I am the only one here. I have so much to do and so little of it do I actually want to do. like sending out Discrepancy Report emails, refilling a Narc which I do not mind but nobody is here to verify for me. calling the IT Guys who are ignorning all of my requests for WebSite Updates.